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Tracing the root of my distress

March 18, 2011

Just recently, everything just seems wrong to me. I can’t even figure out which really is not well with me but I pretended I was alright. It won’t do any good anyway if I show what I really feel and how I’m doing inside.I’m just thankful that I can be myself when I am alone in my room. I would always ask God so many whys… How long will I stay this way… and so on.

Just this evening, I was wondering if I will go on a prayer meeting. I just sat down and suddenly the thought of reading James 3:16 came into my mind. It reads:

For where you have envy and selfish ambition, there you find disorder and every evil practice.

From this verse I strongly believe it was God speaking to me at that moment so I stood up and decided to go to church. Thank God for there, He continued speaking to me through the message shared. The exhorter’s stike through my heart with these words. “Remember, God is not our servant. We are His servant.” Exactly, I became so down, frustrated because I keep on insisting my will to God. I can’t wait for the appointed time so I suffered. I forgot that with the way I acted, I almost dictated what God must do.

My prayer today is that may God show me what to do as I wait for His appointed to for the things I am asking Him.

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